http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQY4dIxY1H4

I admire Chris for his love and affection for his fiancée, for not many people would have been able to do this. It takes a very big-hearted man and a lot of love to pull this through. I wish the both of them the very best, and a speedy recovery for Juliana. If you wish to make a donation to Juliana, you can do so from this website.

I think I got upset because back then, I really liked him for who he was as opposed to what he had. The kind heart and gentle words were the things that attracted me to him in the first place. It would be hypocritical to say that his background didn’t make a difference at all. But it is unfair to say that I liked him only for his background. If I did, I probably would be clinging on to him no matter what, no? If there was anything the family background did, it was to drive a lot of fear that I was never going to be good enough for him or live up to their expectations.

Anyways, it’s been so long. We were all young and silly once. I think my greatest takeaway for today is a reminder to always appreciate and be sincere to another person for who they are. As long as I can proudly tell myself that I have been real, I think this is enough for me.

Here’s a batch of pictures for your enjoyment.

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Picture of room before the revamp:

In the process:

Unveiling the new room

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Little details to cosy up the space:

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TADAH!

Hope you guys enjoyed the pictures. It was 7 weeks of hardwork overhauling the entire room. I’ve been hoarding and piling up stuff since 2006 and the mountain of stuff in the ugly bookcases in my room is astounding. I literally huffed and puffed to set up the new furniture, cut out the little vinyl stickers, sorted and threw away the little items. (Unfortunately I still have one box in the guest room still waiting for me to sort/throw out but yeah, at least the major stuff is complete)

Some lessons that I learnt:

1. Stop buying unnecessary items. If you don’t think you will ever use it, don’t waste your money!
2. Always put things back from where you took them out from. Isn’t this exactly what your mom always told you? Until you are at the receiving end of having to clear up your own mess, this advice probably falls flat
3. Stop hoarding! If you haven’t used the item or looked at those secondary school physics textbooks for 10 years, what makes you so sure that you’ll look at it in 20years? Donate, recycle or throw them out.
4. Sort items out according to colour / types. Hair stuff at one area, important stuff at another. This will help you find your stuff easily and raise the probability that you’ll use them.

I’m really happy that I FINALLY got down to packing this monster and I can say that I’m really proud of myself. All the hard work have paid off I would like to take this opportunity to thank my brother and Alex for helping me fix up the furniture and drill the walls + what nots and of course my Mom for helping out to sort the bookcase and Dad for providing the resources.

Feel free to share links of your own bedroom makeover in the comment section below!

Just the other day, I realised that I have graduated from university for 4 years. 4 freaking years! Where did the time fly to? It’s so scary that the days, weeks, months and years fly by without one noticing it. Everyday my mind is almost drowned in thoughts, questions, queries almost as if I have this insatiable desire and expectations about how things should be in life. I ask myself incessantly with questions such as..  Have I done anything remotely useful with our lives yet? Am I inspired by my own life? Am I enjoying the things that I do? Am I a good daughter? Am I a good boss? Am I a good friend? Am I a good lover? Can I love people? Can I dream dreams? Can I become what I want to be? Can I have more energy?

Yada yada yada, it’s like a huge concerto playing in my mind. Thoughts even having dialogues with each other. Somebody once said that my star/birth/whatever sign points to me being deeply philosophical and forever deep in thought. Now you know why I almost always look distracted.

I labelled this blog post decisions, decisions and decisions because it has been becoming so in my face obvious about the different decisions that I need to make in life on a daily basis. Sometimes I make them consciously, most of the time unfortunately, unconsciously.

Sometimes I wished I knew the answers to everything that comes along my way, or at least make things a little bit more predictable for myself. Anyway, enough about being emo. Seems to me that there’s a long week ahead! Loads of packing for Chinese New Year. Can’t wait to post pictures of my revamped bedroom

I should say that the year 2010 has been of many ups and downs. Work wise, was a pretty down year without having done much except for the same old. In fact, some things got really discouraging to the effect that I don’t want to look or think about it. But that’s just running away. In any case, I’m gonna be working on them this year. Life wise has been great though, having pursued an interest – acting. It’s like waking up in the morning one day and telling myself that I want to learn how to act and it manifested in me taking up classes and even acted in 1 gig. That I must say is pretty amazing. Weight wise, I managed to reach my lightest ever of 56kgs. Unfortunately I piled on 1.5kg thanks to the festivities but I am very aware of that and will change it this 2011.

I’m dredging up my old list from 2010 and let’s have a look to see what was achieved:

1. Book a trip to South Korea with Jannis (Postponed to 2011)
2. Online digital printing system by end of the year for Archerprint (No)
3. Revamp and Clean office (No)
4. Revamped bedroom (Started Process)
5. Weight to hit 55kgs (Am 57kgs now)
6. Own a chanel 2.55 (No)
7. T-bone up and running (No)
8. Learn Cantonese (Completed Pimsleur’s Cantonese)
9. Expand into 3rd branch for Archerprint (No – collapsed into 1 HQ)
10. Establish a passive / additional income of SGD$5k a month (No)
11. Modernize business operations at Archer (Progressed)
12. Up DP wing revenue to $50k a month (No)
13. Run Bluefox garment distribution in SG (No)

Omg, after looking at what I’ve set out to do and looking at my results – 2010 has been lousy in this sense.

Well, no point crying over spilt milk, lost time, what nots. Time to pick myself up and move forward. However despite not hitting my initial goals, I’m thankful for the other stuff that I did in 2010.

1. Holiday-ed at Macau, Guangzhou, KL, Batam, Phuket.
2. Managed to hit weight of 56kgs
3. Started E-I business
4. Acted in my first acting gig!
5. Met new friends from all over the world. That I’m so thankful for.
6. Went for Dharma class and learnt about Buddha.

Well, all these aside, I think it is time for me to declare my new goals and wants for the new year to anchor me for the path ahead!

Here’s what I generated with Eric Buddy on our Batam sabbatical.

3 values governing Year 2011: Freedom, Fulfillment and Discipline.
Everything I do, I would like to always anchor it to these 3 values. Am I doing it with discipline, do I feel fulfilled, do I do it with freedom or it brings me towards freedom? Very often when we do things, we lose sight of the bigger picture. Year 2010 was a lot of dissatisfaction, restrictions and very sadly ill-discipline. Maybe I’ve wasted my year but things always happen for a reason I suppose. *Shrugs*

Intention for Year 2011: May 2011 be a year where I find a career, build a loving relationship with people and live a life of discipline. Every minute is spent with care and every moment is treasured and savored. May I be able to find a way to be of value to people and make a difference with my actions.

Theme for Year 2011: 2011 will be the year where I find happiness and fulfillment again.

Goals for the Year 2011:

1. Achieve weight of 50kgs OR a beach ready bod. I ain’t looking for a six pack, but something that looks un-flabby.
2. Book the Korean Trip with Jannis. (Intent for the Korean war to STOP)
3. Trip to Hongkong and Shanghai to visit Noel and Sheena.
4. Increase sales of AP to 50k a month.
5. Get E-I featured on publications and sell 12 units.
6. Go on a family vacation to anywhere with Dad, Mom and Bro
7. Chanel 2.55 (Will get this if I hit my 12 units E-I sales)
8. Getting in touch with friends who matter
9. T-Bone!
10. Put together a book with Eric
11. Revamp my bedroom
12. Clean up my office
13. Get my first TV acting job!
14. Go for drawing class
15. Make my own soy bean drink
16. Organise and clean up my office desktop
17. Audit wardrobe and donate stuff to Salvation army.
18. Do a photoshoot. (Don’t know just came from somewhere.)
19. Go on a quarterly getaway to recharge! Batam/Bali/Bangkok/Somewhere!
20. Restart beautychubbs blog.

Resolutions for Year 2011

1. Sleep by 1am and wake up when the alarm rings.
2. Exercise 3x a week
3. Meditate once a week and be in touch with myself.
4. Revive my blog – at least 2 substantial entries a month
5. Read 2 books or more every month.
6. Review my goals every week and tick them off.
7. Log my food intake daily.

These are my goals so far. And today I managed to wake up within 3 mins of mom knocking on my door. I hope to keep this up for the rest of the year and not like frolick around in bed for 1 hour before I wake up. Ill-disciplined at its epitome, I know.

Alright, think I shall end this blog posting here.

Wishing everyone a happy 2011 and may all our resolutions and wishes come true!

Treasure your happy moments, because these moments will soon pass.
Do not get too hung up over unhappy moments, because these moments will soon pass too.

Life is like a rollercoaster, sometimes it goes up, sometimes it goes down. But all moments are but just fleeting and transient spaces of time.

Just a reminder to myself to be present to the Now and chill over the painful periods

I pray for compassion in my thoughts and views when I am with the people who deserve them.

I pray for love and patience in me when I interact with the people that I care for.

I pray for resilience and perseverance to achieve my goals.

I pray for tenacity to overcome my obstacles.

& I pray the same for you, who came across this entry, with the purest of intention.

Just a little soul food for you and me

1) So many con artists around me. Feel like calling their bluff.
2) Just suddenly annoyed by the lack of meaning in life.
3) I hate chao kuan and ngiao people.
4) Frustrated at something and it’s sucking out my energy. I probably need to sit down and self coach myself out of this rut.
5) Too many voices telling me things. I need to sort them out.
6) Just feeling tired.

Ok, back to work. Will come up with something more substantial later.

Everything’s falling into a routine and I’m feeling the pressure of time on my back. There’s a lot of things that I want to do but am feeling like there’s not enough time. But you know what they say, you make time. I need to revisit my time management skills and spend less time on unimportant things.

On a side note, remember that I mentioned about my unspoken dreams the last entry? I have some developments in 2 areas. I signed up for acting class! Yes, I chanced upon a class right after I declared my dreams and promptly signed up for it. Not sure where it’s going to take me but it is definitely something that excites me.

The next area is…. I’ve actually lost weight and now weigh in the 57kgs range. Mad light. Like the lightest weight ever in my life. The last time I weighed this was when I was 12. For 15 years, I’ve been struggling with weight issues and finally I’m seeing progress and some light in this area. I’m really very very happy.  4 more kgs to go to hit my ideal weight! Then of course for my “model” figure, I need to maintain at 49 kgs – let’s work 57kgs first.

I’m facing a little bit of problem, I’ve so many things going in my head everyday and ideas and ideas keep popping in. I need to find a way to document my thoughts. One moment I have a new idea for my novel, another moment I have a marketing plan, another moment I feel like prancing around. If someone were to look at me, I would look like I have MPD or bipolar personality.

ANYWAY. Enough of rambling, I gotta work on my other weightloss blog.

Till I ramble again.