As I trudged to the stack of papers and picked them up, I saw one that came from a company called “Crawford”. I raised my brow, what’s that. When I opened it, I was pleasantly surprised to see that it was from my insurance company and my claims for my flight delay has been processed and they will be issuing me a cheque for $300. Boy I was soooooo happy. That feeling is indescribable. It’s like you’re thirsty and drying up in a desert and suddenly you find a pot of water. I know it’s a bit dramatic but I think this is the best way to describe it.

I started grinning to myself and opened the other letters. Then I realised the other 3 letters were actually vouchers from my credit card points. $5 Jollibean, $20 Skinny Pizza and $10 from Watsons. Hahaha. Like seriously, those are the things that I need right now. I do hope my $20 Isetan voucher comes to me soon. Then I thought through my day and realised that it isn’t that bad, I was packing my bag today and saw that I had this Biotherm coupon thing to redeem free samples. I happened to be at Paragon Metro where they had a Biotherm counter and I got free samples. Even better was that the samples were for the Homme range but the lady also threw in the lady’s range for me.

I think I’m really grateful for everything that’s happening to me. I need to constantly remind myself to count my blessings. It is really a state of mind that you can switch in and out of. Now that I’m positively charged again, those credit card bills don’t look that daunting any more. In fact, I have figured out the cashflow without hurting the fixed stuff. Really, I must remember to stay conscious and be grateful.

Thank you up there. Thank you very much.

And so it seems that 3 weeks of vacation just zoomed by like that. I had many plans, like writing a book, meditating, spending some me time with myself for this holiday, having a boring week. But it seems like I did nothing of those. Trip to the US was intense as I met so many people, did crazy fun things, revisited old friends and shopped till I dropped. I saw Yosemite, stayed at Castro, went for Folsom Street fair, went to an electronic music club, toured Baltimore by myself, basked in the magnificence of Niagara Falls, revisited Philly, swam in Coach bags. I came back recharged, happy and bordering on being broke LOL. The money was well spent IMHO as I really needed the break and money can be earned back right? (comforting myself)

I find that time actually flies by faster now that I’ve started work as opposed to school time. Is it because there’s this lack of examinations that kinda prolong the weeks? Weekends keep hitting me like bullet trains and I am overwhelmed. There has been a lot of work to be done at the backend to make our business more efficient.
On a side note, apart from the business, it was suddenly casting call season and I’ve actually done 1 short live gig and 2 short films. Super fun. I do hope there are more film projects that I can participate in next year. I’ll be rounding up the year soon and revisiting my resolutions to see how many of them have I achieved. Here are 2 pictures from my gigs to end off this post

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1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
…4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car – it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything – only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her – if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT – so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

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By: Boy’s dont realize how much one little thing can upset a girl.

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And then you wake up from your dreams. But still doesn’t hurt to think about it yeah?

I’ve been so busy at work handling blows and blows from everywhere. It’s been a tumultuous 2 months. I’ve also had my worst insomnia in my life where I literally woke up at 5am every night for 3 weeks. It has stopped for a while but I felt it vaguely creeping back last few days and wham bang, last night it happened. I slept at 1.30am, woke up at 3.30am and couldn’t sleep any more. I really hope it’s a one time thing, and I’m going to turn in soon to find out.

Apart from that, my vacation is coming soon in around 10 days. I’m so unprepared. I don’t have outerwear, the ones from my previous stint in the US are too big. My shoes are atrocious, toes will freeze. I am in need of a new camera (eyeing the Sony Nex-5), shoes and a coat. Maybe I need a part time job. Haha, alright enough of whining, I’m no longer 21.

In fact, I’m celebrating my 25th in a few day’s time. Like every year. What’s different this year? What wishes do I have this year? I’ll think about it and write something the next entry. Yes, it’s a senseless entry, but that’s the best one can do with 12 hours of sleep in 3 days.

I managed to find some time to do up some really healthy desserts to destress, do check them out:

http://i.cookpad.com/users/51

Just wanted to express my gratitude for the good things that have been happening for the past few weeks. Meeting new people, getting closer to my old friends as well as the new ones.  I had a realisation yesterday while chancing upon one of my friend’s FB status. He shared a quote from Steve Jobs.

Almost everything–all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure–these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

Steve Jobs

I felt that it struck a chord in my heart and reminded me to live for the present and stop subscribing to my fears and limitations for all these no longer matter when you realise that you can’t bring them along with you when you depart this world. It actually made me feel pretty liberated. Thank you Steve Jobs

Nah, I’m not freaking out or being adverse to it, afterall I chose to put myself online for people to read and to maybe get to know me a little bit better? Yeah, some of my friends asked me wouldn’t I be worried or feel weird if my business associates come searching for me and discover my blog and realise that I am trying to do acting at the same time. That might make people take me less seriously?

Of course I am! Are you kidding me? But yes, it’s part and parcel of life if I want to go down this route and pursue an interest of mine. I am at a point where I’m trying to brand myself as an artiste/actress/host and yet run a business. Would my business client feel weird and not want to do business with me if he/she reads about me here? Questions, questions and questions. So what’s my conclusion? I see myself as somebody who has a full time job that I put my heart and soul in to work it while at the same time, I have a side passion for the performing arts where I can express myself. So, in the Singaporean context, I am a full time business developer and my co-curricular activity is in Drama.

This is who I am and what I want to do. I will put in my 101% in my work and my interests. Feel free to ask me any questions and I will try my best to be as candid as possible.

I think I got upset because back then, I really liked him for who he was as opposed to what he had. The kind heart and gentle words were the things that attracted me to him in the first place. It would be hypocritical to say that his background didn’t make a difference at all. But it is unfair to say that I liked him only for his background. If I did, I probably would be clinging on to him no matter what, no? If there was anything the family background did, it was to drive a lot of fear that I was never going to be good enough for him or live up to their expectations.

Anyways, it’s been so long. We were all young and silly once. I think my greatest takeaway for today is a reminder to always appreciate and be sincere to another person for who they are. As long as I can proudly tell myself that I have been real, I think this is enough for me.

My job is to get into character and be the person I am acting. I must consistently remember this important point to ensure that I deliver consistency when I’m on set. I suppose this is what every newbie has to go through at the beginning, despite the amount of training they have. If I am weaker in this area, I better put in 3x the effort! I’ll have to just keep doing, trying, casting until I succeed. At least I know that I have done my best.

On a side note, the month hasn’t been that great as I’ve encountered 3 funerals within this 30 days. Parents of my friends and another, the wife of my mentor. When I went to my friend’s dad’s funeral and looked at him for one last time, I had a realization that life is so transient. We are here for such a short period of time. Before we know it, we would have aged aplenty, before we realise it, ten years would have passed by just like that. And when we finally go, all that’s left is an empty shell. Really, we must treasure every single second that we have and go do what we want. Don’t hold back too much or be too hard on ourselves when we fail, for these difficult moments will pass soon.

Gosh, rambled a bit too much again, alright I think I shall end for today. Friend took a picture of me eating my favourite viet spring roll and looking like a cow. Don’t mind the eyebags – too lazy to put on makeup.

I’ve finally gotten down to revamping the entire website to make it friendlier to the casting directors. Yes, I’m going serious into this acting business and hopefully I can land myself some roles on film, TV or stage. Stage is going on fine, with my teacher giving me some opportunities to gain more exposure. I’ll be acting as a Korean lady this time round, time to research on their mannerisms!

I have also been working on my diet to make sure that I lose the flab. It’s so hard having to fight against temptations of just gorging on my favourite icecream or going to Todai to eat like crazy. The cravings can get crazy where my entire mind screams sweet and fried stuff. Typically, I’ll walk to the fridge, open it up and look for something to eat. I’ll stare at a piece of cheese and suddenly the words, “FATS + FLAB” flashes across me and I quietly close the door of the fridge and drink some 0 calorie water. It seems like this time round I’m really determined to achieve my ideal weight before my birthday in September. And of course it is very important that I still stay healthy and not become skinny, emaciated and malnourished. I still eat whatever I like, but the portion sizes are controlled.

Alright, to end off, I would like to share a little gem of a flash game that my friends recommended. The company of myself. Play it if you haven’t, I totally dig the game play and storyline. Whole game should take you around 1 hour or less

I also kinda coached an angmo online friend of mine to do up his website. From knowing practically nothing to doing up a pretty nifty site with quite some content within a few days … I must say it’s pretty impressive. I would also like to think I’m a good coach… right . It pretty much lists some of the best free online games and if you guys are feeling bored from reading this blog, why not hop on over and try out some of the games his brother and him have been recommending.

Other than being the avid traveller, busy workaholic, helpful friend, I managed to find some time to meet up with some of my buddies and the people that I love. Taste some good food at Jpot and Serenity and did some meditation. Did I mention that I also Emceed at Zeoane’s wedding? Mind’s just in a whirl. I wonder if it’s cause I’m just trying to busy myself such that the mind doesn’t rest at all and think too much. I hate it when the mind just runs its own stories over and over again. Morning till night, any free time it loves to roam. Maybe…. And a fleeting thought… Acting gigs, please come my way! I’ve also signed up for body sculpting classes with Jannis and possibly a dance class with Eil.

You know I just had a realisation, it’s like I feel as if I don’t do anything much everyday, but when I start listing the things that I’ve done in 2 weeks, it actually does seem like quite a bit. It’s weird how things work. Don’t mind my ramblings, sometimes I just let the thoughts run.

Anyway … do check out the gameblog. I’m a guest administrator there but I practically do nothing. I will be using the site to test out some SEO concepts of mine and hopefully I get to master this complicated monster.

Till the next posting!