I’ve been looking at my analytics and am noticing that there have been quite a no. of people looking for me online these days. I wonder why… Maybe it’s my business associates, maybe it’s the casting directors, maybe *shrugs*
Nah, I’m not freaking out or being adverse to it, afterall I chose to put myself online for people to read and to maybe get to know me a little bit better? Yeah, some of my friends asked me wouldn’t I be worried or feel weird if my business associates come searching for me and discover my blog and realise that I am trying to do acting at the same time. That might make people take me less seriously?
Of course I am! Are you kidding me? But yes, it’s part and parcel of life if I want to go down this route and pursue an interest of mine. I am at a point where I’m trying to brand myself as an artiste/actress/host and yet run a business. Would my business client feel weird and not want to do business with me if he/she reads about me here? Questions, questions and questions. So what’s my conclusion? I see myself as somebody who has a full time job that I put my heart and soul in to work it while at the same time, I have a side passion for the performing arts where I can express myself. So, in the Singaporean context, I am a full time business developer and my co-curricular activity is in Drama. 
This is who I am and what I want to do. I will put in my 101% in my work and my interests. Feel free to ask me any questions and I will try my best to be as candid as possible.
Had a girls’ night out today. While chatting randomly with a good friend of mine, she shared that an ex-crush (really old one almost 10 years ago) kind of worried that I liked him for his background. I mean, it was an innocuous statement but somehow I kinda got hurt by that. I didn’t realise how much this got me until I was driving home and I shed a little tear.
I think I got upset because back then, I really liked him for who he was as opposed to what he had. The kind heart and gentle words were the things that attracted me to him in the first place. It would be hypocritical to say that his background didn’t make a difference at all. But it is unfair to say that I liked him only for his background. If I did, I probably would be clinging on to him no matter what, no? If there was anything the family background did, it was to drive a lot of fear that I was never going to be good enough for him or live up to their expectations.
Anyways, it’s been so long. We were all young and silly once. I think my greatest takeaway for today is a reminder to always appreciate and be sincere to another person for who they are. As long as I can proudly tell myself that I have been real, I think this is enough for me.
It’s been so hectic for me. Trying to run a business while going for casting calls. Just went for a casting call yesterday, it was pretty fun but I personally didn’t think that I did too well at it. I seem to be held back when I’m in front of the camera yesterday, so I need to work on this aspect of me. Nervousness is largely due to internal conversations running – am I saying the right things, where am I supposed to place my arms etc etc. Get over it!
I’ve finally gotten down to revamping the entire website to make it friendlier to the casting directors. Yes, I’m going serious into this acting business and hopefully I can land myself some roles on film, TV or stage. Stage is going on fine, with my teacher giving me some opportunities to gain more exposure. I’ll be acting as a Korean lady this time round, time to research on their mannerisms!
Been busy for the past 2 weeks doing a lot of travelling. Guangzhou / Batam / Bintan. I’m tired out. I’ve also been up my neck with work and trying to systemize stuff. Acting gigs are coming back and things are going to get exciting again. Oh, weight loss too … That’s another project I’m working on.
I also kinda coached an angmo online friend of mine to do up his website. From knowing practically nothing to doing up a pretty nifty site with quite some content within a few days … I must say it’s pretty impressive. I would also like to think I’m a good coach… right 
. It pretty much lists some of the best free online games and if you guys are feeling bored from reading this blog, why not hop on over and try out some of the games his brother and him have been recommending.
